An A to Z of Jasmine

An A to Z of Jasmine

I was recently tagged by my good friend Katy to do an ‘A to Z’ post about myself. However, I thought it would be more fun for me if I wrote an ‘A to Z of Jasmine’ instead. After all, I like to use my blog as a place to make notes about my little girl, who is growing up far too quickly! I hope that one day, when I’m much older and my memory is hazy, I will have all of these lovely memories to look back on and reminisce over.

A – Jasmine’s was born on the 7th April 2014 at 7.41pm. 


B – Jasmine’s bedroom has a Little Red Riding Hood theme. It’s my favourite room in the house.


C – Jasmine had recently started giving proper cuddles. She throws her arms around me and rests her head on my body. It gives me the warm fuzzies. :) 


D – Whenever we are out, if we pass a dog, Jasmine will always point at it and make an “Ooo?!” noise. She’s fascinated with our canine friends. 


E – Jasmine currently has eight teeth. Four at the top and four along the bottom. 


F – We did Baby Led Weaning with Jasmine which made feeding her so much easier. 


G – Jasmine’s first ever journey on a plane was to Guernsey, which is where we spent her first Christmas at her Auntie and Uncle’s house.


H – “Heidi” was Jasmine’s first (and so far, only) word. She says it in an extremely high pitched voice.


I – Jasmine recently suffered with a nasty ear infection and conjunctivitis at the same time. Fortunately, she’s back to full health now. 


J – Jasmine’s favourite toy is a pink Jellycat rabbit that we refer to as ‘Bunny‘. She cuddles it at night and takes it everywhere with her. 


K – The first item of clothing Jasmine ever wore was a peach-coloured knitted hat that was given to her by the hospital. Unfortunately, it got thrown away by a midwife so we never got to keep it. 


L – Stephen and I each wrote a letter to Jasmine on her first birthday. They have been sealed and stored safely in her keepsake box. We are going to do this every year so that she can read them when she’s older. 


M – Jasmine was born at the Midwife Led Birthing Unit at West Suffolk Hospital – but only just!


N – “Noodles” is the nickname Stephen and I have for Jasmine. We probably use it more than her real name but she responds to both. 


O – Oranges are one of Jasmine’s favourite foods, she can hoover one up in approximately 0.5 seconds. 


P – We spend a lot of time at the park near our house. I still haven’t figured out how to remove Jasmine from the swings without a tantrum ensuing. She’d stay on the swings all day if I’d let her!


Q – Jasmine does the baby sign for ‘duck’ whenever she hears the sound of ‘quacking‘. Adorable. 


R – I had an early miscarriage in November 2012, Jasmine is our ‘Rainbow Baby‘. :)


S – Jasmine is obsessed with our Sing & Sign DVD. We have to watch it several times a day and it completely captivates her from start to finish, every single time. It drives me a little bonkers.


T – Jasmine’s first tooth came through at 7 months.


U – I’m extremely sentimental but there was no way I could keep Jasmine’s umbilical cord stump once it had dropped off. Gross! It went straight in the bin. 


V – Jasmine’s favorite vegetables are courgette, tomatoes and baby corn.  


W – We’ve recently started going to Waterbugs swimming classes – I hope Jasmine’s confidence will grow over the next few weeks as she’s very nervous in the pool.


X – Jasmine received a wooden instrument set in the shape of an owl for her first birthday from her ‘Auntie Bubbs‘ (two of my best friends) which has a Xylophone on it. Jasmine loves to play it, even though she holds the sticks the wrong way round.  


Y – I still can’t get over the fact that my baby is a whole year old.


Z – Jasmine is terrified of most zoo animals and wasn’t even that keen on the very nonthreatening red pandas.  


I now tag Lorraine from Babyy Pebbles, Vickie from A Pocketful of Dandelions, Hayley from Hayley’s Little Things and Shannon from Shannonagains to do an ‘A to Z’ post on either themselves, their little ones or anything else that takes their fancy. :)

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Stream of consciousness….

Stream of consciousness….

Some days I feel like my mind works overtime, the voice in my head yammers on all day long about anything and everything. I often find that writing down these thoughts and feelings help me to process them, rather than let them run round and round in my head, like a broken record. So that’s exactly what this post is, a stream of consciousness, that will mean very little to anyone else, but something tells me that I’ll feel better for writing it all down.

Jasmine’s napping upstairs and I stand outside in the garden, the sun warms my skin, I’m feeling a little lost….

Heidi is with me, she’s dragging a toy around the garden. She dumps the manky, old ball on a rope at my feet and I bend over to pick it up and then throw it for her. She whizzes to the other side of the garden and snatches it from the air. She then runs around in circles, tail tucked between legs, ball and rope hanging from her mouth. She looks so happy. I think for a minute about how uncomplicated happiness is for a dog.

All I can hear in the garden is the gentle hum of the main road, it’s like white noise and I barely notice it half the time. I can never decide if I enjoy this peace and quiet whilst Jasmine naps or not. Part of me likes the silence, a little bit of time to catch my breath before she wakes up for ‘Round 2’ but the other part of me feels like the silence is a reminder of just how lonely and isolated I am on a day to day basis.

I can’t stop thinking about my family. I get annoyed with myself for thinking about them because I know they don’t think about me. I constantly go from a ‘ah, who needs them’ attitude to ‘I really wish they were a part of my life’. I hate turning green with envy every time somebody mentions how wonderful their parents are, how they dote on their grandchild, how they are always there for them. I want that. I want Jasmine to have that. And we can’t have it because we cannot control other people. We can’t make them care about us. We can’t make them want to be part of our lives. Ah, who needs them.

I wish that Stephen was home because this weather is glorious. I feel selfish for enjoying it when I know he’s at work, feeling stressed. I wish we could enjoy this sunshine together. We met around this time of year, it was on sunny days like this one that we would walk for miles and miles, getting to know one another.  We’ve been together for almost 5 years, but I still feel like there’s lots of getting to know each other that’s still to be done. It’s so important that we make time for each other, it’s not so easy anymore but that shouldn’t be an excuse. I never want to take him for granted.

I think about going back to work. It’s not that I’m planning to, I don’t have to and I’m not sure if I want to. I’m not a career woman, I don’t miss work. I do miss adult company, though. The friends I’ve made on maternity leave have all gone back to work and now I rarely see any of them. I can’t help but think maybe I should go back to work too? I always wanted to be a stay-at-home-mum when I had children but I never realised how guilty I’d feel about it. I feel like it’s not enough. Whenever I go somewhere new, meet new people, I secretly pray they won’t ask me what I do. Because I’m not sure how to answer them without feeling embarrassed and ashamed. I care what they think and that annoys me. Ugh.

I’ve come to the conclusion that I’ll never be able to earn a living from my blog. The type of blog posts I enjoy writing aren’t the type that make money. And even if they were, would I want to put a price on them? No, I’ll have to find another way. For now, I’m enjoying just doing what I do. I have got some genuinely lovely readers and that is payment enough.

I’m undecided about going dancing again tonight. I enjoyed it last week and I am proud of myself for giving it a go. But I don’t know if I’ve got it in me to do it all again tonight. To put on my brave face, to go and dance with strangers, to walk in that hall, bust some moves and pretend I don’t care that I’m alone. I’ll see how I feel later on…

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One year ago…

One year ago…

A year ago today we saw Jasmine for the first time at our 12 week ultrasound scan.

We sat in the hospital waiting room feeling giddy with excitement, although after one early loss already, I’d be lying if I said I hadn’t felt extremely nervous leading up to that day. The thing I wanted to hear more than anything that morning was “everything looks good”. The couple sat opposite us could obviously tell we were all new to this, the bloke leaned forward and whispered “first time?”. They went on to tell us that this was their fifth child and that they also had 7 dogs as well as various farm animals. To be honest, I wasn’t overly interested as all I could think about was my own baby but it did kill time while we waited for my name to be called.

I was also desperate for the loo due to the nerves but also the half a litre of water I’d drunk in the car on the way in. A few minutes after my appointment time, just as I was a bursting point, we heard “Jenna, please?” Finally it was our turn to see our baby.

I was taken into a small room and introduced to the Sonographer, a lovely middle-aged lady who somehow immediately made me feel at ease. With her was a trainee Sonographer who asked if we minded her sitting in on the appointment, we were fine with that.

I hopped onto the bed, adjusted my clothes to expose my stomach and watched the Sonographer squirt gel on to my belly. “This is going to be cold, I’m sorry.” It took me back to the ultrasound scan I had when I was about 5-years-old.

For some reason I thought it would take her a while to find the baby, I guess because I had been used to searching for it with our home doppler. However, within a couple of seconds it was on the screen, clear as day, that unmistakable black and white baby-shaped image. You never forget that moment.

The next few minutes were filled with lots of ‘wow’s as we were shown the different parts of the body. I still couldn’t quite believe this was all real. The weeks of sickness I had endured were suddenly all worth it.

The Sonographer took a few minutes to concentrate on taking measurements and then I heard the words I had been waiting for “Everything looks good.” After she had finished taking the details she needed, she asked if it was OK if the trainee had a go. As I could’ve quite happily watched my baby all day I was only too pleased to get the opportunity to see it on the screen for a little bit longer.

They printed us off a picture and gave it to us for free as a thank you for helping the trainee out. Sadly our appointment came to an end but what an experience. Stephen and I both had beaming smiles across our faces. I stared at that blurry little image all the way home. Our baby. It was slowly sinking in. Now we could finally break the news to our friends and families!

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The 14th October 2013 was such momentous day for us and one I will never forget.

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A Mummy & Baby Autumn Bucket List

A Mummy & Baby Autumn Bucket List

 I know that pretty much every blogger does an Autumn Bucket list at this time of year and for that reason I almost didn’t bother. But ya’ know what? It’s one of my favourite times of the year so in the end I just couldn’t help myself!

 A Mummy & Baby Autumn Bucket List:

An Autumnal baby photoshoot: You know the type I mean. I’ll dress Jasmine in some cute clothes, maybe a knitted hat that resembles a woodland animal and plonk her amongst a pile of fallen leaves. Should be easy, right? ;)

Visit the Maize Maze: We’re planning to visit our local Maize Maze (sorry, I can’t stop saying Maize Maze) at Undley Pumpkin Patch which opens on the 4th October. I’d love to say how, as a family, we’ll enjoy finding our way around it but I’m competitive so I’ll probably just run off, trying to beat Stephen to the exit. Muhaha!

Pick and carve our own pumpkins: Whilst we’re visiting the Maize Maze (I know, I have a problem!) we’ll also pick up a few pumpkins to carve too. I like the idea of making our own little pumpkin family. One to represent each of us!

Make pumpkin baby puree – Those big orange vegetables are full of iron and vitamin C so why not add it to the list of flavours for Jasmine to try? Click here for a ‘how-to’ on making Pumpkin Puree.

Update my wardrobe: I’m not particularly enamored with anything in my wardrobe at the moment. Autumn is the perfect excuse to update it – I’m thinking lots of cosy jumpers!

Go out for lots of walks: Sunny Autumn days are perfect for getting out of the house and exploring the local parks. I love taking in the sights and smells that this time of year brings with it. Jasmine’s never happier than when we are out on walks too, she loves sitting in her buggy watching the world go by.

Dress up for Halloween: OK, I probably won’t. But I’m definitely planning on dressing Jasmine up for Halloween. Check out my recent post on Baby’s First Halloween Costume Inspiration. I still haven’t decided on a costume though!

The S.A.D Bashing Challenge: As someone who does suffer with SAD (Seasonal Affective Disorder) I will be taking part in Anna’s October S.A.D Bashing Challenge over on her blog Tea with Miss Beatrix. Click here to find out more about the challenge and how you can take part.

 
What’s your favourite thing to do in the Autumn?
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