Over the last few months I’ve dabbled around with making YouTube videos. I took part in the ‘Would you rather?’ tag, shared my Top 5 Beauty Products and reviewed a toy for Fisher Price. Whilst I’m still trying to find the direction I want to take my channel in, I’m pretty sure I’m not a ‘sit down and talk to the camera’ type of vlogger. Even though I’ve had some lovely comments, when I watch the videos back I can see how uncomfortable and nervous I am. I think for now, I’ll leave those type of videos to the beautiful people!
Recently I stumbled across a YouTube project called ‘Document Your Life’. People all over the world make and upload monthly videos – compilations of short video clips from their daily lives set to music. I was instantly hooked on watching these videos and watched one after another after another.
I decided that I’d love to take part too and, rather uncharacteristically, also decided I would start the very next month. Normally in situations like this I’d wait until January or until I could afford a super-fancy computer to edit on. But no, I decided to start in November and use my irritatingly slow laptop (which makes me want to punch it in the QWERTY every time I use it).
Things were going well and I was really enjoying filming little snippets of our day and putting them together (however slowly). And then, well, November turned out to be a pretty awful month. I had a second miscarriage and suddenly everything was all doom and gloom. The last thing I wanted to do was pick up a camera and film, I didn’t have any motivation to do anything.
I thought about scrapping the video completely – it felt too short and disjointed. Not only that, I couldn’t use the song I had lovingly chosen as it was 3 times as long as my footage. After watching the film back a few times, I realised that despite its faults, it still made me smile.
And that’s why I’m sharing it anyway…
The dog walk on a windy, grey day.
The moment of peace and tranquility I enjoyed by the fish pond.
The way Jasmine’s face lit up when I kissed her on the cheek.
How could I leave those moments to just sit and fester in a folder on my computer?
Video, for me, has always been about preserving memories – first and foremost.
There we have it, my less than perfect video of moments from a less than perfect month. Memories preserved.
I can’t wait to get stuck into December…