17 weeks pregnant (with text)
Baby Button Nose, Pregnancy

Growing a rainbow baby: 17 weeks pregnant

How big is Baby Button-Nose this week?

Baby BN currently weighs about 140g this week, about as much as a turnip. Length: 13cm, head to bottom.

Symptoms: 

Not much to report this week. I’ve had a hideous cold and cough which has meant I’ve felt rotten but not had much in the way of actual pregnancy symptoms except for the usual lower back pain.

Baby movements are getting stronger still and more regular too. I love feeling little kicks!

Mood: 

Pretty good! :)

Highlight of the week: 

I went for a well overdue haircut on Wednesday evening which felt like a nice break!

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16 weeks (with text)
Baby Button Nose, Pregnancy

Growing a rainbow baby: 16 weeks pregnant

How big is Baby Button-Nose this week?

Baby BN measures up to an avocado in size and weighs 100g. (Length: 11.6cm, head to bottom.)

Symptoms: 

I thought week 16 was quite a quiet week symptoms-wise but then when I sat and thought about it, I seemed to have quite a big list by the end of it. Here goes…

The terrible skin has returned on my face. It’s not so much spots this time but my skin is red, sore and blotchy. Where’s this ‘glow’ everyone keeps telling me about, huh?

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Family, Motherhood

On toddler groups and why they are NOT the answer I’m looking for…

I had my 16 week midwife appointment yesterday. Leading up to it, I had played the whole thing out in my head several times. The bit where she asks “and how has your mood been?” and I casually lie “Oh fine” and we move swiftly on to checking my wee or blood pressure.

Except it didn’t happen like that. When asked how my mood had been lately, I felt my eyes fill with tears and my face get hot. “Up and down” I replied. And then I broke down. I sobbed as I blurted out about how I am struggling to cope with feelings of isolation and loneliness. How I don’t have any support network. How I hate living in this town. How I tell my husband every. single. day but he just doesn’t get it. How I have no idea how I’m going to cope with two children.

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15 weeks one (with text)
Baby Button Nose, Pregnancy

Growing a rainbow baby: 15 weeks pregnant

How big is Baby Button-Nose this week?

Baby BN has grown to around the same size as an apple and weighs about 70g. (Length: 10.1cm, head to bottom.)

Symptoms: 

At the beginning of the week I had quite a bad skin breakout on my face. My skin has stayed relatively clear during this pregnancy so far so it took me by surprise. Anyway, it seem to clear up by itself pretty quickly.

I’ve been suffering with lower backaches a lot this week. One evening, after getting Jasmine ready for bed, it took me several minutes to stand up because the pain was shooting down my backside/legs. My poor girl looked quite worried (I was doing my best not to swear and probably sounded a bit like “Ffff….aargrrghrhhjdkjkhdjhg!!”) and after explaining to her that my back hurt, she came over and started rubbing my back saying “ouchie”.

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Jasmine's Monthly Updates, Toddler

Jasmine’s 25 & 26 month update

It’s been a little while since I last wrote an update on Jasmine and I have to say, the first couple of months of parenting a two-year-old have been very, erm, interesting! I’ll get the negative bit out of the way because I don’t want to dwell on it. The couple of weeks leading up to and after Jasmine’s 2nd birthday (so we’re talking a month or so in total) almost broke me. She was having tantrums almost constantly throughout the day – and I mean full on screaming/kicking/biting tantrums. She could go from zero to ten in a split second and we both (my husband and I) found it very hard to deal with. Thankfully, after a few weeks of this behaviour it seemed to peter out – she still has her moments, don’t get me wrong – but the tantrums are far less frequent and intense.

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14 weeks pregnant with text
Baby Button Nose, Pregnancy

Growing a rainbow baby: 14 weeks pregnant

How big is Baby Button-Nose this week?

Baby BN is now roughly the size of a lemon (length: 8.7cm, head to bottom) and weighs about 43g.

Symptoms: 

I feel like a lot of my first trimester symptoms are (mostly) disappearing now.

I had a random bout of nausea on Saturday (28th May) which lead to me being sick in a bush on the way to the shops. Isn’t pregnancy glamorous? That’s the first time I’ve been physically sick in a couple of weeks. I think it was because I hadn’t had enough to eat before taking my vitamin tablet.

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13 weeks (with text)
Baby Button Nose, Pregnancy

Growing a rainbow baby: 12 & 13 weeks pregnant

I’m so excited to be writing my first ever pregnancy update! I didn’t start this blog until Jasmine was a month old and I always regret having not documented any of my pregnancy. Already I remember very little about it which seems a real shame. The last couple of months have felt like the longest ever so aside from anything else it’s nice to finally be able to talk about my pregnancy instead of keeping it a secret.

If you want to read about my first trimester symptoms then check out this post.

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My first trimester symptoms
Pregnancy

My First Trimester Pregnancy Symptoms

I never documented my pregnancy with Jasmine and it’s something I really regret. I took the odd bump photo every now and again but that’s all I really have. With this pregnancy almost certainly being my last, I want to make more of an effort to document it – both the good and bad bits. Given my history with miscarriage, I’ve been very reluctant to write anything down about this pregnancy (even privately) in fear of jinxing it. And that’s coming from someone who, ordinarily, is not remotely superstitious.

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pregnancy after a loss
Pregnancy

One day at a time…

Part of me expects that nobody else, other than me, will ever get to read this blog post – although I hope that won’t be the case. I’m pregnant. And, as much as I wanted this, and I really did want this – I’m not overjoyed or excited… I’m bloody petrified. You see, this is my fourth pregnancy and thus far my success rate for a healthy full-term pregnancy is 33%. Doesn’t sound a lot, does it? But the numbers don’t mean anything, not really. Either I’ll lose this baby or I won’t. I’m trying to be optimistic but I’m finding it incredibly hard.

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Pregnancy

The pitter patter of more tiny footsteps…
{Pregnancy Announcement}

If you follow me on social media then the chances are you’ve already heard that we’re expecting baby number two. If not, then – surprise! It feels so good to finally be able to share our exciting news, after what has felt like the longest couple of months ever.

Here’s a teeny, tiny video I made during a Jasmine nap time. It’s a token effort! ;)

It’s taken me a little while to get around to announcing my pregnancy on my blog for a few reasons. Namely exhaustion, guilt (there’s a post sitting in my drafts about this) and the pressure to do it ‘well’.

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